The Compulsive Side Hugs

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As I walked towards you ,looked into your eyes and approached for a hug,an usual resistance climbed up my throat.My body urged for a reluctant side hug,not the usual hugging style of  people in love.Was my body trying to convey something that my heart was trying to deny?

Our usual greet used to be,me running towards you from a distance and hopping on for a clumsy back hug & my arms tightlywrapped around you, reaching your stomach and tickling it.

When did we settle up for the side hug?

Was that my body trying to convey that there are parts of me that do not belong to you anymore.Was this side hug a metaphor for drifting apart or the last bits of love left for you, to cling on?.

I tried,I tried to convince myself of how we are still in love , how I am just overthinking,of how metaphors don't make any sense.

How could i still justify the compulsive sidehugs?

I guess when you do not know how about much you belong to a person you try to belong as less as you can.

Your love started feeling like the last caress before being abandoned

Sidehugs aren't a good thing to hold on to, Are they?

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Location: Thane, Maharashtra, India

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